its always easier said den done.
oh well, i will raise both of my hands in agreement..
(hmmmm.... raising both of my legs as well)
i am very convicted abt doing the rite thing despite how u feel, coz we cannot do the work of God base on feelings, we cannot make decisions due to feelings, we cannot due to feelings, push all responsibilities aside & ignore.
bcoz feelings go up & down.
esp when we are emotional, the things we do, the decisions we made, tend to be stupid.
and of cos, causing us to regret in the near future.


all these, is wat i always repete myself in cg, in shepherding, in dmm & even normal chattings.
but but but...
when it happens to me, i seriously find it tough to do the rite thing despite how i feel.


dun reali feel good for the past few days.
kept tearing, haiz.....
in my mind, i clearly noe that i cannot allow emotions to affect me.
but it is reali affecting me despite how i try to avoid it.
i keep meeting ppl up trying to keep myself occupied.
but ya lar, its dumb.


den den den den....
alot of "dun feel like" ..
shall not elaborate thou.
so many times, i have do the rite things.
and at that moment, it doesnt feel good to do e rite thing!
i noe wat are e rite things to do...
if u ask me, i can even list them down.
thats y, i have to make a decision...
to do e rite thing or to nurse the emotions.


haiz, i reali very sad.


but i thank God for being so so faithful.
God is juz so tangible.
as in, at e end, i still did wat is rite.
didnt wana submit to my feelings cos God is constanly reminding me.
God is always there chit-chatting with me.
i ask him alot of times, "wat should i do?"
or... "God, pls understand, i am not feeling good,can i not do it?"
den when God ans me... "do wat is rite.." i will cry... haha
sounds funny rite?
cos i was reali reluctant.


here comes the blessings..
after obeying God, i realised alot.
realised that 'she & she' can be my frenz.
shall not say their names =p
i wana invest in building friendship with them =)
i reali want.
its not easy to be a fren.
trust me.
but i want to =)


ii duno how to say.
this time when i tell my ppl or any other person abt doing wat is rite despite feelings, i guess i can tell them with much more conviction.
cos i experience that.
i noe how tough it gonna be & i experience blessings!


e blessings are more den juz the fren part.
its that, i appreciate God more, my relationship with him grew to another level le... =)
i heard this sentence 2 times...
"hey, u gotta grow up, u gotta be mature.."
haiz, i want to..
reali.
i want to get out of that little gal in me.


face the music.
this is the term rite?
its challenging.
have to be humble, gotta have self-control & courage.
i cant avoid this forever rite?
come on ting, u have God!


all in all...
i juz wana say that, i reali wana please God..
i reali want to.


do wat is rite despite how u feel.
easy? nahz!
but it pleases God & also, u will surly not regret.


ting... could u please juz grow up?


okay btw....
i reali tik that my 3 sheep are God's gift to me.
today so sad lar, hit 5 for service...
i was like... "hello... i tot our goal is 12?"
was so discourage....
i blive my gals are too.


den juz now, my gals ask me to call them to conference.
they start evaluating & planning wat to do next week.
i was reali touch lar.
reali.


thank god that they have ownership for this grp.
i am not e only one working.
gals, i reali love u to bits!
sometimes, i reali feel that we are more like frenz.
love u gals not only cos u all work hard lar, but more of... i tik its reali God eh...
not cliche ok!!
but its reali God that bring us together & west A 4 is juz like our home =)
as in... mayb there will be down times ba, no no, there WILL be down times, but i blive all these wun change the fact that we are united, we are so loving.
wahahahahahahahaha!!!!


i love u sheep.
phoebe, jes & cindy =)